sink under.
There could be fog
Or maybe just a mist
And inexplicably I'll fade to white
Vanish, and be gone
Or it could be night
And I'll be darkly dressed,
Evading easy definition
And as your eye's distracted
By a falling leaf
I'll merge with restless shadows
And be gone
Then you will discover
What emptiness is
A space so hollow
Even its own walls are swallowed up
A quality of missing
So intense
A lack, a lack
Each hour more bottomless than the last
Until your heart cries out,
A howl of forfeiture
But it will be nothing
Ashen silence where I used to sing
And deafness
The howl must strike the right resonant frequency
A wail that echoes all to the ends of time
To fill the gaping void in whole, looping wavelengths
From the well of your soul, such loneliness
To make Siberian wolves hang heads for shame
In their convivial packs
Then, only then
Might you detect my footprints, indistinct
Marking the morning dew fall
Perhaps glimpse a puff of breath
in the cold, dawn air
You must utter
A howl so desolate, it
Jerks you from your sleep
To find me warm beside you on your pillow
And you will know how
Close you were to the brink
Of the abyss
And know what missing is
And hold me.
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the livin one.
JEWW.
taurus.
ball thru the hoop is my game
OUTDOORS and clubs.
APPLOGIST
EMOTIONS.
talking, laughing, loving, breathing,
fighting, fcuking, crying, drinking,
writing, winning, losing, cheating,
kissing, thinking, dreaming.
LIST
suspenders
overolls
convrse bball shoes
timberland baggg
braunbuffel wallet
adidas sbs
adidas jacket
ipod video
MACbook pro
limegreen G-shock watch
adidas cap
DUN HAVE MY SIZE! ):
havanas sandles
E.A / adidas shades
black blazer with white strips
clothes pls :)
Monday, June 19, 2006
ROARS ROARS ROARS.
STOMPS STOMPS STOMPS.
SCREAMS SCREAMS SCREAMS.
AHHHHH.
IM SO FRUSTRATEDDDDD..
TELL ME WHAT'S THE USE OF TRAINING IF THERE'S LESS THEN 5 PPL.
TELL ME WHAT'S THE USE OF A BBALL CAMP IF LESS THEN 3 PPL IS CONFIRM GOING.
THIS REALLY SUCKS.
TELL ME.
tell me what should i do to make all of you come for training?
tell me what can i even do?!
i thought a combine bball camp with the guys would be a good idea..
apparently its just my own wishful thinking..
how do i even arrange a friendly match if none would come?
sighs.. if ure sick i understand.. drink more water and rest well bahh..
youthcup clashes so let it be..
overseas.. so be it then..
work.. cant it be arrange on other days?
projs..
i dunno.. time management?!?!
ive 24hrs a day so does everyoneeee..
i study train work play shop have fun.. argh.
AH!
and now when i say im gonna drop outta the camp everyone starts tellin me can make it?!?!?!
why dun all of ya confirm with me earlier??!?!?!??!?!
this is killing meeeeeee..
any idea how much i feel like cryin now.
shux.
wo man yuan wang le..
hang on jew, hang on.
. stared 7:39 AM